Helmsman in the Psychic Wars

I have an unfortunate history with apathy, and laziness. When I get frustrated with a situation, I have a habit of mentally abandoning it, which is a problem if the issue could have been corrected with a little more persistence. Like a junkie looking for another hit, I’ll start looking for stimulation anywhere else to kick my brain back into gear, but that never does anything much for the issue that kicked me into apathy in the first place.

For the first time in my memory, I’ve reached a point in my mental evolution where I can recognize the state early, and kick myself back into focus using a little determination. This is paying off in spades, as I’m getting more work done and facing more of my challenges head-on. My self-image is improving as well, which is having positive repercussions throughout my life. I’m noting this as yet another skill I wish I’d been able to put to use ten or twenty years ago.

It’s not foolproof, though, and requires constant attention, which may be the cause of the one downside; my energy levels seem to be a little lower, especially at the end of a day. We had friends over Friday night, and I was down for the count by 10:30. (I hear I made a cute figure conked out on the couch while they continued to converse.) I’m pretty careful about what I eat these days, and am on pretty much the healthiest diet my palate can stand, so it may be time to look into vitamins again.

(Actually, I backslid a bit this weekend with Cokes and a small box of chocolate-chip muffins. But I’m sitting here this morning with a bottle of water like a good boy.)

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  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

  • stori_lundi says:

    I hear ya and have the same problem. Vitamins and some extra meds to kick my metabolism into shape have helped a lot. I’ll never be a true type A but at least I feel more accomplished. *hugs* to you for your success!!

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