On this day in 2011, I tried quite seriously to kill myself. I was a second or two from succeeding when sense kicked in and I had my friend Jesse take me to a mental hospital, which I left two weeks later, as stable as I was gonna be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m in no real danger any more. Haven\u2019t been since that day. But the horrible side of my brain tries to talk me back into the idea whenever I\u2019m stressed, which is pretty often. I’ve tried various drugs to calm myself and shut that thing up, but they\u2019ve never really worked, and I still have to listen to the self-destructive asshole. It gets old.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Either way, I\u2019m still here, which I\u2019m thinking is a victory.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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