Neither the World or My Blog Ended
And so, 2013 begins. (Yeah, okay, it began three weeks ago. Whatever.) And let’s look at things since I last blogged.
I’m still not keeping up with my blogging the way I want to. I know this is the seductive voice of depression telling me there’s no use in it, and making the process of putting words down on paper for all to see a terrifying one. All I can do is keep fighting that, and continue working to get back to where I was. It’s so easy to procrastinate when your head keeps whispering that doing anything good with life is useless and dangerous. I know those are lies, but I can’t always remember that. Nothing for it but to keep plugging.
Still looking for new work. A couple of interviews haven’t worked out, but of course that’s something I know I just have to keep trying. The fears are ever with me there as well, but luckily they are balanced a little by the knowledge that I have to keep working. Food good, you know? Last month I had a shot at a fascinating job which would have paid 50% than the xTuple job, but my resume was only slightly weaker than the competition’s. Damn it.
InterventionCon was a lot of fun, and I revelled in the pleasure of a con where I was committed to nothing and could enjoy myself. I think I over-did it a little bit in 2012: the two cons near the end of the year at which I presented nearly sucked me dry. Part of that involved other stressors, but I’ve only agreed to four acting / presenting commitments this year, and one (MarsCon) is already past. I’m not saying I’ll take no others, but I may be pickier.
We filmed the script in September. I tried a two-camera setup again, with plans for even more ambitious editing, and right after I transferred the secondary (iPhone) footage to my computer, the hard drive died. I’d already deleted it off the phone, so all that was gone, as well as a year’s worth of other work. (I’d backed up my entire machine in 2011 to an bootable extra drive in order to be able to use old software.) I edited around all the footage I lost, and the results didn’t suck, but when I watch it now I can’t help but see all the awkward angles that should have been replaced by footage for the second source. Lesson learned: I now have a spare drive which gets updated by Apple’s Time Machine every hour.
The costume that I’d hoped to have for NekoCon isn’t finished, it’s on hold until I can improve my exercise routine and drop some belly, because it just won’t look good until that happens. However, a lady friend is bugging me about going out to walk every day, which I’ll be doing after I finish this!